fic: you don't see me standing here (i just came to say goodbye); one-sided John/Sherlock; post TSOT

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Series: It’s like a train-wreck (beautiful and deadly)

Title: You don’t see me standing here (I just came to say goodbye)

Fandom: Sherlock BBC

Spoilers: Up to and Including Sherlock Season 3 Episode 2: The Sign of Three

Characters: Sherlock Holmes, Raz (Sherlock), Greg Lestrade, Mummy & Daddy Holmes

Warnings: Past drug use and discussions of addiction. Also hints of bad things that happened while Sherlock was on hiatus.

Summary: It’s a danger night. Sherlock knows this when he walks out of the wedding hall. There’s a voice in his head and it’s screaming, shrill and relentless, and he feels like he could claw his eyes out just to make it stop. He isn’t used to selflessness, but he has given everything he is, to John. Now, there’s nothing left. He has to get out. He has to leave. Staying will be the death of him, and he thinks there’s been quite enough of that going around.

AN: So. This fic has been eating my brain for a while now. There are three fics planned for this series, and hopefully they’ll all be posted before Sunday. There are a bunch of songs that I’ve been listening to on repeat, and if you’re interested you can listen to them too, to know exactly what kind of mood I’m in. Look at the notes below. I’ve used quite a few head canons from different places.

Disclaimer: I own nothing. This was quickly beta’d by Lucy, but all remaining mistakes are mine. Thanks babe. The title is from a very appropriate song called Dancing on my own by Robyn

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